Plan 'B'...

Oh dear Lord...after 4 crazy and exhausting months we finally decided that we had to do what we had to do...take the house off the market!! What a nightmare!! People coming in and out at all times of the day...with or with out notice...and me, trying to keep it 'perfect, just in case..'. To coin Mel's term, I became 'Psycho Mommy' and it wasn't pretty!!

I did not realize how incredible blessed we were last time, our house selling in just one short week while we were already moved out! And everything seemed to be pointing us in that direction again, so we were trying to be obedient...yet, the doors were just not opening like we had anticipated! Time to seek Him, again, and figure out what to do. Of course, all you can really do is wait, and pray, which we did, A LOT!! And after about 3 loooong months I finally started asking, "Lord??? Am I hearing you right? If this isn't the direction, please change our hearts and let us both have the same desire to stay...". Within a month, we both knew... there are so many upsides to being here, and we are very happy in our home...if the doors weren't opening than it was for a reason and we needed to listen!! So when we finally decided enough was enough...ohhhhh, what a relief!! I called the loan officer we were working with and asked ever so politely, "Ummm, can you by any chance change that to a 'refi'?? :)"...luckily, she has been quite the trooper and we are on our way to a much nicer interest rate, which means the kids may have a college fund after all!! Of course it was very hard calling my realtor, and dear friend, to tell her we were changing the plan...after she had worked so hard for months I truly regretted not getting her the sale...but what can you do?? Especially when the foreclosure down the street is going for $100 k less than ours!! How could we even compete?? It just wasn't an option to 'give' the house away to make the sale...but God is good and has given us a new direction with a total and complete peace...ahhhh...

So, needless to say, I am now playing catch up on all the things I hadn't been doing for the last few months since I was way to busy keeping up appearances...yes, the sheets are getting washed again, the kids and I are playing again, I've started working out again...life is good. Of course, there are toys all over the floor and the beds don't get made everyday but, hey, we're baa-aaack!! I've also started working on potty training w/Shelb (do little girls really go every stinkin' hour?? I swear, the boys could hold it forever!!), and had the shelves put up in the toy room for all of those Legos...and Shawna's coming to paint a little horsey room soon...yippee!! I also realized how traumatic it would be to leave all of her other painting behind...she has given our home it's signature and it has sentimental value!! Looks like I won't have to worry about it after all...since we're not walking out the door, we can still look through that open window...